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Reliving childhood traumas, large or small, to heal and love self and other-self

I asked myself: What made me afraid in my childhood, of asking or changing deals in the moment, when my spleen says so?

The fear of being shamed/wrong/changing my mind? for what?  I asked myself... this is one of the images that came to mind...

For running out of gas; making mom run out of gas while going to MSO (orchestra) because I forgot my sheet music at home because I didn't want to go and play anymore, and then sitting in the pews feeling ostracized by the orchestra while I waited for mom to go home and get the music and come back, and she said I would have to pay for gas so I felt powerless...


Many, but not everyone on Earth, has traumas from little micro-events that add up in our nervous system, and manifest as physical problems that we don't know how to fix on the material plane because our soul wants to fix them where they started first, which is in the realm of the invisible, the feeling, the emotion, nervous system, spleen maybe; the thoughts and feelings we imbibe when we are children, and then we are afraid because we see ourselves reliving them toward our children, which then becomes harder to admit to ourselves. If we can face those little memories instead of stuffing them down, we can allow healing to form in the cracks, and by healing ourselves we heal our whirld, community and beyond. We can go back and see that child-self and hold them and know that neither the parent or the child was at fault, they were living out a pattern that was neither of them, it was an imposition, an untruth about their character, worth and divine perfection.

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