It does seem like god/life/Spirit responds to my desires, at least to the one's that are in the flow of all creation; and dovetails my desires with what matches others, especially when it's coming from my heart and full design, not just my mind! then I get things like piano accompanying when I need them etc... so when it comes to paying my bills, I'm holding a mixed vibration of "I really don't want to have to work to pay off all of my student loans. I really don't know if I have enough energy to pay my credit card bills and car loan this month... I can't imagine having enough to pay rent either." but when it comes down to it, I don't need to fear about my lack of energy, because I'm always supplied with the necessary energy from others, IF I'm following my design: wait for the invitation. So it's a matter of holding my new vibration of service-to-others without the fear that I'm not going to have enough energy. For the support